You know what?

The more I think about it, the more certain I am.

Knock and the door shall be opened

On Thursday night (well, very early Friday morning) I was praying...I'd been praying on and off all day (I was having a bad day) and all day I'd been praying over and over for God to help me make sense of everything that was happening and to show me a reason for it (and there was a fair bit of complaining that my friend, Anna, has everything fall into her lap so easily) and then on Thursday night I was praying about it all again and I just heard something (or someone) say "Wait."

My first thought was that it could be God and I know I can get impatient when it comes to my life so it did seem to fit, especially with what I'd been praying about all day.It could just be an over active imagination though, I guess.

I've spoken to other people though and they think it could be God as well. I'm pretty certain now. That's quite cool! I may write more on this another day for now I'm just happy to know He has plans for me.

"My hair is dyed. We're all very sad."

I have had an amazing weekend with Stef. ABSOLUTELY amazing. Watching him walk away was SO unbelievably hard though. I know it always is hard but this time....WOAH! As stupid as this is gonna sound, it always kind of sneaks up on me. The horrible feeling I get when he's leaving, I mean. Stupid, I know. I should be used to it by now.

Today was definitely the worst so far... I was literally in tears when I got home. Normally I'm a little teary and maybe have one or two tear rolling down my cheek but today... I was in floods. I tried so hard to hold it back but I failed miserably. Hmmm...not sure if I should have admitted that.