"My hair is dyed. We're all very sad."

I have had an amazing weekend with Stef. ABSOLUTELY amazing. Watching him walk away was SO unbelievably hard though. I know it always is hard but this time....WOAH! As stupid as this is gonna sound, it always kind of sneaks up on me. The horrible feeling I get when he's leaving, I mean. Stupid, I know. I should be used to it by now.

Today was definitely the worst so far... I was literally in tears when I got home. Normally I'm a little teary and maybe have one or two tear rolling down my cheek but today... I was in floods. I tried so hard to hold it back but I failed miserably. Hmmm...not sure if I should have admitted that.