"I need this whole train to break down..."

At this precise moment in time, I feel...I don't know. Well, I do know, and I also know I shouldn't feel like it. I just feel like I'm coming second. and I don't exactly know what too, really. But I do and I don't like feeling like this.

Meh. While I was waiting for the page to load I was thinking what I was going to write and I had a proper explanation that actually made sense and everything and now it's all gone so I'm going to leave it now.